Tapes

This particular song by Alanis came on in the car tonight, and it ended up meaning a lot more than on previous listens:

"I am someone easy to leave"
"Even easier to forget"
A voice, if inaccurate

Again: "I'm the one they all run from"
Diatribes of clouded sun
Someone help me find the pause button

All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc

"I'm too exhausting to be loved"
"A volatile chemical"
"Best to quarantine and cut off"

All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc

"I'm but a thorn in your sweet side"
"You'd better off without me"
"It'd be best to leave at once"

All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc

Ah, negative thinking, how much you run through the brain and won't let it keep moving. Another breakthrough today, and something else to think more about, post-DLOC. One wonders where these thoughts come from, and why they're taking so much of my energy with them. I think the DLOC journal will be getting some more writing this week.

Originally published at Of Moose And Men.