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legalmooseCame home after leaving work a little late. Wasn't working, well, not entirely true. Was trying to figure out where our office is going to go next, now that the coworker will be leaving tomorrow. We're going to have to bring in contractors - we just can't do this anymore with existing personnel.
So, came home, defrosted dinner (my own homemade food, frozen - not a TV dinner), fixed a cape cod, went to eat, check email, chat online. Killed some monsters, hopped on gay.com for the first time in ages, chatted there, chatted on AIM, etc. Killed more monsters (Diablo II). Couldn't bring myself to do much more than that.
I just feel so drained from it all. We've been fighting an understaffed battle for the past year, and just as we're about to bring on someone else (we hope) in the next month, someone else quits. Not just quits, but quits and leaves the next day. I can't express how frustrating this is. It's not bad enough that I loathe the current position I'm in, but we're also understaffed and now even more so.
And there are rumors that our boss, two levels up, is looking at a job in another division of the BGA, back where he was before he came here, but for which he would have been ineligible had he stayed there (for other feds, he got his SES when he came to us).
Legal Counsel keeps screwing around on this other position, getting hopes up, then not following through. And now they're saying they still want me, but they won't have space so they have to figure out a place to put me if they do bring me on board (along with two other attorneys, actually - they're totally out of attorney offices).
I really think I would go do something socially nasty like tobacco or insurance just to get out of here, pay off some debts, then move elsewhere. If only I could find a place in the private sector that would take me. My experience in the BGA has been unorthodox, to say the least, and law firms don't generally like the unorthodox. If it doesn't fit their self-important little world view, they don't want it. And it's not like the substantive stuff I've been doing is of any use in the private sector, anyway. They'd have to be hiring me for general skills only. But I can do research, I am already licensed, and in fact, depending on what starting salary is, it would still be a step up in pay if they just gave me what they give first year associates. Ugh.
Don't know what to do, but don't want to stay where I am.
So, came home, defrosted dinner (my own homemade food, frozen - not a TV dinner), fixed a cape cod, went to eat, check email, chat online. Killed some monsters, hopped on gay.com for the first time in ages, chatted there, chatted on AIM, etc. Killed more monsters (Diablo II). Couldn't bring myself to do much more than that.
I just feel so drained from it all. We've been fighting an understaffed battle for the past year, and just as we're about to bring on someone else (we hope) in the next month, someone else quits. Not just quits, but quits and leaves the next day. I can't express how frustrating this is. It's not bad enough that I loathe the current position I'm in, but we're also understaffed and now even more so.
And there are rumors that our boss, two levels up, is looking at a job in another division of the BGA, back where he was before he came here, but for which he would have been ineligible had he stayed there (for other feds, he got his SES when he came to us).
Legal Counsel keeps screwing around on this other position, getting hopes up, then not following through. And now they're saying they still want me, but they won't have space so they have to figure out a place to put me if they do bring me on board (along with two other attorneys, actually - they're totally out of attorney offices).
I really think I would go do something socially nasty like tobacco or insurance just to get out of here, pay off some debts, then move elsewhere. If only I could find a place in the private sector that would take me. My experience in the BGA has been unorthodox, to say the least, and law firms don't generally like the unorthodox. If it doesn't fit their self-important little world view, they don't want it. And it's not like the substantive stuff I've been doing is of any use in the private sector, anyway. They'd have to be hiring me for general skills only. But I can do research, I am already licensed, and in fact, depending on what starting salary is, it would still be a step up in pay if they just gave me what they give first year associates. Ugh.
Don't know what to do, but don't want to stay where I am.
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Date: 2002-08-09 06:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-09 06:49 am (UTC)1) flood local firms with your CV. Follow up a few days later with calls. Be persistent, show that you really want it.
2) sure, you have no specialization, but neither do those kids straight out of law school. Prove to them you have real world experience.
3) basically, look like a tiger. Law firms don't like the unorthodox, but I think they hate anything that's non-aggressive even more.
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Date: 2002-08-09 08:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-09 08:29 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-08-09 08:39 am (UTC)Thank you
Date: 2002-08-09 08:40 am (UTC)Re: Thank you
Date: 2002-08-09 05:57 pm (UTC)